Okay...going crazy with the blogthings!

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You Belong in Dublin

Friendly and down to earth, you want to enjoy Europe without snobbery or pretensions. You're the perfect person to go wild on a pub crawl... or enjoy a quiet bike ride through the old part of town.

What European City Do You Belong In?

Always was good at math

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You Passed 8th Grade Math

Congratulations, you got 10/10 correct!

Could You Pass 8th Grade Math?

Past Life Regression thingy

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In a Past Life...

You Were: A Happy Go Lucky Herbalist. Where You Lived: Egypt. How You Died: Consumption.

Who Were You In a Past Life?

Wow...it's been a while...

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I've been neglecting this journal. I've been busy. I've been tired. I've been nauseous. I've not felt like typing much.

We've made it to the 12 week mark in this pregnancy and I'm starting to feel the baby move a little. It'll be a while before Rick and Jason can feel it. It's definitely a very cool feeling.

The nausea came back full force a couple of weeks ago, but seems to be tapering off again finally. Luckily, Rick is a saint and lets me sleep whenever I need to. He does the laundry, he cooks and cleans...I just love him to no end.

Jason's excited about his baby brother or sister...and I think he's going to let us move him into Kyra's old room so the baby can be right across the hall from us. He's such a big boy now! I can't believe I'm going to register him for Kindergarten tomorrow! I may cry. I know I'll cry on his first day.

I've had a cold all week...but it seems to be passing already. I'm impressed. Usually colds and infections hang around for weeks or months with me as I have such a crappy immune system...but pregnancy seems to strengthen that and I get better quicker. I don't know...maybe it's the positive attitude I seem to have when I'm pregnant. Hmm...I'll have to try that once I'm not pregnant again!

Time to go. Hopefully I'll remember to write more often.

I can't believe how sleepy I am!!

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Man oh man...I feel like I haven't slept in a week. Truth be told, I did get some sleep last night...but woke up at 3:15 and didn't get back to sleep until 5:30...and then the alarm went off at 5:45. Luckily, Rick let me sleep until about 6:45, but I still can't keep my eyes open. I've been at work for almost 4 hours so far and haven't done any actual work! I think tonight I'm going to take some Benadryl around 9:00 (I believe it's safe during pregnancy...I'll have to check first) and go to bed. Hopefully the Benadryl will help keep me asleep!

Ugh...it's almost lunch time and I have no appetite. Toodles...

Wow...almost 10 weeks pregnant

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I'm SO tired. It seems like I can't get enough sleep! I know my body is busy making new life, but come on!

I need to get some tea and actually do some work. Ugh. I wanna nap!

It figures...

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So...my step-daughter is home on leave from the Army. Shortly after she got home, we shared some good news with her, but told her to keep it quiet, because we wanted to tell my other step-daughter and our son personally. She swore she would keep the secret. Well...we found out recently that she posted the news on her MySpace journal and, of course, my other step-daughter (who we haven't seen since Christmas as she's 15 and would rather do anything than spend time with her parents) read the older step-daughter's journal and not only knows...but told their mother. I can't believe this. Well...at least we get to tell our son that he's going to be a big brother finally. My parents, sister and niece are coming for Easter and that's when we're going to tell him. He's 5...and has been asking for a little baby brother or sister for 1.5 years now. Surpise! We're due in November! :)

Silly quiz...

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You have an entrancing kiss~ the kind that leaves your partner bedazzled and maybe even feeling he/she is dreaming. Quite effective; the kiss that never lessens and always blows your partner away like the first time.


103010 other people got this result!
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33% of people had this result.

Just who the hell did I piss off in a previous life????

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Oh my GOD! Rick lost his job three days before Christmas. He flew home for the holiday because he had a non-refundable ticket...but he had to fly back to get the rest of his stuff. So he's back there, and he had to rent a car to drive home because he totalled his car about a week before he lost his job.

Now we find out that the job here in Jax that he interviewed for over the Christmas holiday is going to someone else.

Money is running out.

Bills are due.

I can't support our family on my salary.

His witch of an ex-wife is bitching about child support...well what the hell does she want? He's freaking UNEMPLOYED!!! I will support MY child before I'll send her a dime. She falls way low on my list.

Every time I get stressed, my asthma flares up, which causes my sinuses to produce way too much mucus, which then gets backed up and infected, which then coats and infects my vocal cords...so I can't speak. ARGH!!! I guess this is my only way of letting off steam since I can't freaking talk! ARGH!!

Praise the LORD and Hallelujah!

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Rick just called...he had a phone interview today, and the hiring manager said they'd give him a try! It's less than he was making before...but we can get by. Plus it's second shift (3-11) and since we've only got one car now that means I'll have to either shift my hours, or take late lunches every day to drive him to work and then bring our son out at 11:00 pm to pick him up every night. But that's okay. We can do that. People have done a lot more stressfull stuff than this. If this job goes permanent, we'll go out and buy a cheap second car.

YAYAYAYAYAY!!!

No time to type today...so in a nutshell...

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1. My cat passed away at 5:40 pm on Tuesday, December 6th while comfortable in my arms.

2. My husband's supposedly wonderful job has just taken a nosedive. Instead of it being a 6 month contract turning permanent June 1st, it's now on a week to week basis with little to no chance of being permanent, so we're back on the fucking roller coaster.

3. My son was sick last week, but got over it quickly.

4. Christmas is going to be a lean one this year (see comment number 2).

5. Work is good...busy but good...and that's a damn good thing (again, see comment number 2).

Gotta go!

Losing my kitty?

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I'm sitting here crying my eyes out and I don't know what to do. I've been doing some research online, and Willie might have Chronic Renal Failure. She seems to have the symptoms of either that or diabetes. Whatever it is, I can't afford to treat either condition. I also don't know if I want to let nature take its course or have her euthanized. I've been reading online that a natural death can be peaceful...but it can also be very traumatic and painful for the animal. I don't know if I want to let her go through that if it is. But at the same time, I don't know if I can afford to have her euthanized. I also have to live with the fact that I should have taken her to the vet a long time ago...but I didn't recognize/know the symptoms. I just thought she was getting old (which basically she is...but it could have been treated).

If I choose to let her go naturally, I take the chance that she's going to suffer...and it also means that I will find her one morning, or one evening after work and have to deal with it while trying to explain to Jason what happened.

If I choose to take her to the vet/humane society and have her put down, then I have to live with the fact that I chose to end her life before God chose to take her. But at the same time, she would just go peacefully to sleep. Then I have to explain to Jason where she went and why...how do you explain to a very inquisitive 4 year old how/why you let someone kill his pet???

Oh crap. I don't know what the heck I'm gonna do. I just looked over at her while on the phone with Rick and I thought she had stopped breathing. I had to go over and touch her to make sure.

I am very quickly losing it. My mom tries to help...she's sympathetic...but at the same time she's not as attached to Willie as I am, and only sees that it will be one less cat to clean up after. Part of me is angry at her for being so callous...but the logical part of my brain knows she's right.

Rick is trying to help...but he just ends up making it worse...and our money troubles don't help right now.

Okay...that's it. I need to get away from the computer, because it's in the same room as the cats and I keep looking over at her as if I'm waiting for something to happen. I can't take it anymore.

Yucky, yucky, yucky...

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Ugh...the weather is yucky, I feel yucky...all I want to do is sleep. But who sleeps with an almost 5 year old son running around?

So, the Jags won...we finally kicked some Titan ass! Go JAGS!

Bucs won too! Yay Bucs!

It's pouring rain...where's my blanky...There are so many things I need to do around the house, but I just can't seem to get motivated at all. I hate this!

I now return you to your regularly scheduled life...

Ah...my gorgeous little boy!

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Just had to post his latest picture. Isn't he adorable?? I can't believe he'll be 5 next month!

Title: Wow...things are improving...

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So...Rick and the dog found a place to live (YAY!). It's in our price range, close enough to work, fully furnished, and on top of a hill with a view of a golf course. He couldn't have asked for anything better! :)

My step-daughter called us from her base in VA (she's in the Army) and informed us that she's getting married...in the week between Christmas and New Year's...THIS YEAR!! And she wants me to help his mother plan it all! Talk about short notice!!! ARGH! How am I supposed to be a single mom (since Rick's in Cali), plan Thanksgiving, Christmas shop (with my son with me!), plan Christmas, get the house ready to be sold, AND plan a wedding??? I think I need a nap! Invitations technically should go out NOW...and I'm going to be the one to print them...she hasn't even given me the name/address of the Church, much less a guest list!!

UGH!

So...things are looking up...

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Rick and the dog made it to Cali safely. He's meeting some of the people he'll be working with today for lunch...and then he starts his new job tomorrow morning. It's weird...I know I miss him...but at the same time, I don't. I guess what I'm trying to say is, I've had to push the "missing him" down deep in order to get through each day. It surfaces from time to time...but mostly I'm just too tired by the end of the day to really get emotional about it. Let's just say, I have a new found respect for all those single parents out there!

California here we come...

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Okay, hubby leaves tomorrow to drive to Cali to start his new job next Wednesday. I'm dealing with it much better today than I was last night. Last night it was just such a shock I didn't know how to feel. Today, I realize that this is what I prayed to God for and I got exactly what I asked for. I prayed that Rick would find a job...any job...making good money...and I promised that I would go wherever he found work. So, I can NOT complain. I can, however, be sad to leave our families behind. I can, however, be scared to be on my own with our son for the next six months. I can, however, be apprehensive about packing up and moving 2,300 miles away (that's gonna be a long drive with a 5 year old, 3 cats and a dog...UGH).

It wasn't easy explaining to our son last night that Daddy's going away. He's still young enough that he doesn't understand the concept of time and distance. Rick realized he's gonna miss Halloween with Jason. And that he'll probably spend Thanksgiving alone (as will we). We're hoping he can fly home for Christmas and Jason's birthday...but he won't be here for our 6th anniversary in March. Wow...too much to think about. My head's starting to hurt again. :(

Oh my freakin' GOD!!!

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Wow. I mean...WOW. Hubby got a job. A really great job. But it's in FREAKIN' CALIFORNIA!!! I don't wanna be 3000 miles from my family!!! But I've got to be supportive. He's so thrilled about it...I have to be happy too. I don't want to bring him down. He's been down for so long, he deserves to be happy.

California's nice, I guess. Good weather...but lousy pollution. Oh my. I don't know what to do, think or say. ARGH!!!

Ugh...

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Ugh...That's all.

Not doing well today...

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Not only do I feel like crap physically, but I'm an emotional wreck as well. I've got this panicky feeling and I don't know what to do about it.

Hubby still hasn't found a job, and money is more than tight. Argh! I can't take it!