Thursday, October 27, 2005

California here we come...

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Okay, hubby leaves tomorrow to drive to Cali to start his new job next Wednesday. I'm dealing with it much better today than I was last night. Last night it was just such a shock I didn't know how to feel. Today, I realize that this is what I prayed to God for and I got exactly what I asked for. I prayed that Rick would find a job...any job...making good money...and I promised that I would go wherever he found work. So, I can NOT complain. I can, however, be sad to leave our families behind. I can, however, be scared to be on my own with our son for the next six months. I can, however, be apprehensive about packing up and moving 2,300 miles away (that's gonna be a long drive with a 5 year old, 3 cats and a dog...UGH).

It wasn't easy explaining to our son last night that Daddy's going away. He's still young enough that he doesn't understand the concept of time and distance. Rick realized he's gonna miss Halloween with Jason. And that he'll probably spend Thanksgiving alone (as will we). We're hoping he can fly home for Christmas and Jason's birthday...but he won't be here for our 6th anniversary in March. Wow...too much to think about. My head's starting to hurt again. :(

Wednesday, October 26, 2005

Oh my freakin' GOD!!!

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Wow. I mean...WOW. Hubby got a job. A really great job. But it's in FREAKIN' CALIFORNIA!!! I don't wanna be 3000 miles from my family!!! But I've got to be supportive. He's so thrilled about it...I have to be happy too. I don't want to bring him down. He's been down for so long, he deserves to be happy.

California's nice, I guess. Good weather...but lousy pollution. Oh my. I don't know what to do, think or say. ARGH!!!

Monday, October 17, 2005

Ugh...

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Ugh...That's all.

Tuesday, October 11, 2005

Not doing well today...

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Not only do I feel like crap physically, but I'm an emotional wreck as well. I've got this panicky feeling and I don't know what to do about it.

Hubby still hasn't found a job, and money is more than tight. Argh! I can't take it!